It's kinda vague.

and distant.

...and all too uncertain.

But the possibilities are endless.
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I've been allowing fate to take on the wheel and do the navigating for me. I let myself be drifted away and be wherever the waves take me. It's not a smooth-sailin' cruise of luxury, however. Every now and then, storms and winds would come on too strong and disturb my peace, leaving us (me and the people around me) disoriented and exhausted, but at better times, with a new perspective. Even then, that's the way I had wanted it to be.

Until recently.

I feel stuck in between horizons with nothing to look forward to.

I don't know if fate really brought me here or what, but I don't like it here. Idle is somewhere/someone I don't want to be. Slightly forced by this predicament I am in, it's time for me to push fate aside and take over my ship.

I have no clear plans on where to go or how to operate the sails,

but I know I couldn't always leave the steering to others.

I have to learn.

I knew all along it would eventually come to this, and I guess now is the right time.

This is a difficult task for me as I am indecisive as ever. 

It might take a while. 

I'm honestly quite scared of what lies ahead. 

And with all the odds rarely in my favor, I could only hope for a stronger vessel.

Regardless, I now move at my own will, pace, and control.

Without anything, let a purpose and a goal of where I want to be serve as my map and compass!

 I'll get there, ..somewhere, for sure. :)

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May 19, 2012
Stena Line
Cruising from Sweden to Denmark