Why do I write?

"Why even keep a blog?"

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I don't share my blog openly to people -- I'm quite shy about it. haha! Weird, right? So, yeah, when I hear others know about it and I react dumbfounded and strangely embarrassed, they ask me what it's for if it's not for people to see or to be shared... 

Well.. I dunno. 

..Or maybe I do know, but I'm just quite inarticulate in expressing myself well through said words that I tend to shrug it off and leave it unanswered. Or, yeah... reply with "I dunno." haha!

The truth is.. I write for many reasons. 

I write for myself.

(And I mostly write as if I am talking to myself..)

..to reflect and 
release my thoughts - issues that have been bothering me that I can't quite contain and need to let out.  

I write for strangers...
..for people from across the globe I know nothing about to read what I have to say, and maybe find company in this side of myself that I don't hide but seldom show. Quite odd that I find it easier to share more of myself to people I don't know - for reasons I refuse to put into words now.. but that's just the way it is. haha!


I write for the people around me...
(but hoping they wouldn't tell me that they do know of this blog's existence hahaha!)

..for my friends, family, and others to better understand and know my story, when together, I feel like giving them the stage and choose to listen to theirs instead of sharing mine. 

I write to immortalise my life's adventures...

I travel "not because I want to escape from life, but to not let life escape from me". I blog my travels to share the wonders of the world I am privileged to see. I share because I want to inspire people to see the beauty of things despite (and beyond) all the miseries, chaos, loneliness, and pure bad luck. I want to inspire people to believe in chasing dreams and in doing the things they love to do. I chase my dreams because I know no other way to better live my life than in realising them, and living life without regrets. I believe in living in the present. haha! I refuse to be normal and just "exist". I want to make my life count -- not all are privileged to have one. I show my gratitude by not wasting the life I'm given,.. and - hopefully -  by inspiring people to do the same with theirs. 

I write to express myself further when I couldn't..

 - for lack of time, opportunity, and mostly, confidence. haha! funny. :)) I admire people who can just speak their minds intimately or in front of a lot people.. I admire them for their sense of presence, ..their ability to string their thoughts coherently,.. their charm to retain people's attention and keep them interested in what they have to say, ..their power with speech. Some people just have it and I unfortunately don't.. haha! And while I do wish I have even just a little of their elocution, I thank the heavens for the other ways I can I can express myself better. :) 

Even if I'm not best writer in the world, and my grammar and punctuations can easily send me back to school (I'd love to study again, though hahhaha!), or that I don't have that certain flair with words, I still try my best to write in the way my thoughts flow through or round and round in my head. Sometimes they run so fast that my mouth can't keep up with it, which then makes me say the most ridiculous things ever - incoherent, skipping details, and pointless, even if to me - in my head - they all make sense. haha! 

In here, though, I am given the freedom of time - time to slowly, carefully, and openly let my thoughts be put into words (hopefully, in a better and more organised manner!).. And add photos! Visual representations of my thoughts -- the inspirations, reasons, and triggers of these narratives. 

When words can't do it for me, I let the beauty of art be the way - or actually, it's more of the other way around. ;) 

And strangely though, now that I am writing about it, and have just written those lines above, I am again reminded what's the end purpose of this thing - why I chose to start a blog in the first place...

So yeah, I guess there's nothing to be really worried about when I share this openly...

It's time to let it go! ;)

"Let the storm rage on, the cold never (really) bothered me anyway." ;)

(okay, i just had to insert that. the movie was just awesome. :))

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